I'm not exactly sure how it happened. For me, things related to God tend to be like that.
I'd been praying and somehow got to thinking about a major failure I'd undergone in my life. I'll save that for another post. Let's just say it was the worst day of my life and I have no one to blame but me.
Anyway, after bathing in my past failures, somehow I found myself trying to find an old friend on Google. He was my best friend back in the day. One of the links was for an obituary bearing his name. Obviously, I wasn't feeling bad enough at this point... -Click- Thankfully, the obituary was for a different person with the same name. Why do all my friends have common names...grrrr...
I gave up, but the picture of the person in the obituary hit me pretty hard. Since I wasn't done being bummed out this morning, I entered an image search for Boise obituaries...
This is what I saw.
I'm not sure that any of you will see this image the way I did, but my personal self-loathing and all around bad attitude, shattered like a dropped vase. I can't look at that set of images without seeing all the connections, all the love and pain shooting out to all the family and friends. Then the greater: God's love for them. Encased in these photos are more triumph and failure than 10 of my lives.
I'm still working through the point of all this. Here's where I'm at right now: My failures and problems are bad, but tomorrow I might be in that set of pictures. You might be up there tomorrow. Maybe we should put away what's behind us, not worry about tomorrow and dig into today. Maybe our top priority should be loving people today, praying for people today, helping people today. Maybe we should let the people around us, friends, family, even strangers know how much we care about them.
And that the reason we love them, is because He loved us first.